Berfday

Today I am 36. Physically, I feel about 29 (except my elbow, which feels 50). Emotionally and mentally, I feel about 20 (and going down). I have mixed feelings about birthdays. On the one hand there are the wonderful memories of parties and presents, the attention I got just for being born on this day. The proximity to Hallowe'en helped, as many of my early parties were pumpkin carving parties. On the other hand, as an adult (yeah, right), I feel awkward about mentioning my birthday, and I don't yearn for the attention like I used to. I don't really want presents, but I suppose I do like the spankings (did I just say that out loud?). So here I lay, all dressed up for my birthday, wondering what the day will bring.